WHAT DO YOU RUN TOWARDS?

Who are you if you walk away from everything you know?  The daily rituals you've come to depend on, the rungs on the ladder you've climbed, the day-to-day social network(s) you've acquired over a number of years, with no idea when or if you'll be back, and if not, where to from here.

For me it was the only way I was really going to see what I was made of.
Would there be anything left? 

New country.
New city.
New job.
New apartment.
New bank.
New language.
New people.
No history.
No knowledge of past achievements or past glories.
Just another face on the street. 
Nameless.
 
And I knew I would only really find out if I did it alone.  

Everyone should have an opportunity at some point to draw on themselves as their only emotional support.  Yourself as your back-up, your best friend, your life coach, your Zen Master General.  On the point of solitude though I am well qualified, as I have done most reckless things in my life on my own.

It is a dishonest life, in my opinion, when you do not push yourself, when you do not test and challenge your boundaries.  Because, in what other life are you planning to take risks? 

In some way or another I've been running towards fear for a number of years.  If it scares me, I'm going to go over and pat it on the head, shake hands with it, sit down and talk to it.  

Fear and I.  We are good friends.